It’s kinda funny. I’ve been looking forward to getting my hands on the new Bon Jovi album. Of listening to those songs and relishing them, of reading the liner from cover to cover and marvelling (read: perving) at the hot totty contained within. However now I have it, I seem to be avoiding listening to it. I don’t know why, but bizarrely I feel apprehensive about it. My excitement has been replaced with nervousness about what the rest of the album is like. There’s no good reason to be apprehensive. The songs I have heard (We Weren’t Born To Follow and When We Were Beautiful – the latter of which I absolutely adore) are pretty damn good, and the reviews garnered from the leaked version of the album have all been positive – back to the Jovi we know, love and missed during the last album, so why can’t I flick that play button??
I don’t remember having this trouble with the other albums. I remember getting them home or in the mail, ripping off the cellophane cover (and swearing when I couldn’t find that annoying plastic tape tab, ripping it to my computer and MP3 player, and playing it through from start to finish several times over and reading the lyrics and liner notes and loving it.
I wonder if this time I’m just tired. The other albums have all arrived (for the most part anyway) when I’ve had very little playing on my mind …. but seemingly not this time. As odd as that sounds, despite the fact I’ve had this last week off from work I’ve barely relaxed. Between helping out Suze from a distance with my job and stressing about getting concert tickets and researching and making arrangements for them I’ve never really switched off. I’m also back at work on Monday which means my stress level is ratcheting up again already. I think I want to stop the world and climb off for a minute.
Saturday 31 October 2009
Monday 19 October 2009
Best Laid Plans
The story of my life. I had planned to go to the Big Apple for my big 3-0 next year, but it seems that plan is this *makes really small gesture with fingers* close to being in jeopardy. I’m jumping the gun. I know I’m jumping the gun as nothing is for sure yet but I like stuff organised, especially something like this. Guess I’m a little OCD in that respect.
As some of you know, the plan was two weeks in NY next April. All was going well …. too well maybe – accommodation was booked, leave days organised and non-refundable flights a weather eye kept on …. then it happened. Not exactly what I expected to happen but it did nonetheless. I was expecting boss’ to be awkward about time off work, or the apartment to burn down, but no, it was something completely out of left field.
That isn’t as cryptic as it sounds. I’m not going into details but it means there is a risk of a potential inability to fly. My solution was a simple one. Surprisingly it wasn't popular though …. wonder why??? ;) OK maybe that is cryptic ....
So now we’re a little in limbo. I still want to go. I will actually only turn 30 once despite inevitably trying to do so repeatedly as time goes on. I have a plan B …. she's said no at the moment, but I’m sure I can wear her down with promises of shoes and Jovi if needs be ….
Wish me luck!!!
As some of you know, the plan was two weeks in NY next April. All was going well …. too well maybe – accommodation was booked, leave days organised and non-refundable flights a weather eye kept on …. then it happened. Not exactly what I expected to happen but it did nonetheless. I was expecting boss’ to be awkward about time off work, or the apartment to burn down, but no, it was something completely out of left field.
That isn’t as cryptic as it sounds. I’m not going into details but it means there is a risk of a potential inability to fly. My solution was a simple one. Surprisingly it wasn't popular though …. wonder why??? ;) OK maybe that is cryptic ....
So now we’re a little in limbo. I still want to go. I will actually only turn 30 once despite inevitably trying to do so repeatedly as time goes on. I have a plan B …. she's said no at the moment, but I’m sure I can wear her down with promises of shoes and Jovi if needs be ….
Wish me luck!!!
Saturday 17 October 2009
Look Ma!! I'm Famous!!
I recently watched Wanted. If you don’t know what that is it’s a movie starring James McAvoy, Angelina Jolie and Morgan Freeman about a frustrated office worker (McAvoy) who finds out he is the quick-reflexed son of a professional assassin who gets recruited by the boss (Freeman) of his dad’s former organisation, The Fraternity (which includes Jolie), and gets trained up as a professional assassin. Cue all kinds of shenanigans. I kinda like the movie, if not just for the car chase at the start of the movie, but as 2 hours of my life I’m happy to waste …. unlike when I watched Shrooms which, to be perfectly honest, was just shit!! Anyway I digress. The movie starts with Wesley Gibson (McAvoy) typing his name into Google and finding no results for it cementing his self view that he is, in fact, a complete nobody. I believe the technical term is “vanity searching”.
Well I got kinda curious and tried it with mine and came up with 4,700 results. I never realised I was so prevalent on the internet. ;) There were many entries on social networking websites the world over (not all me!), a few images that appear on my Myspace account, I even found my Twitter account – seems I rank kinda highly on Google searches (page 1 is good right???) so thanks to all my fans. I couldn’t have done it without you. :p
But the best result I found was a link to this entry on the Urban Dictionary website (http://www.urbandictionary.com/) which read “The most admirable, alluring, angelic, appealing, amazing, beautiful person there is. This girl is a seriously one person you want to meat if you haven't already, and if you have you know what I mean. She light's up my day whenever I talk to her. She makes you smile, laugh, trust and a lot more. Nothing could ever replace what we have and nothing could ever replace this girl. I could seriously hold this girl for hours and really be okay. She makes me think about what importance there is in life. I would rather spend five minutes with her and never see my friends again, than never see her and see my friends forever. She means that much. She is worth everything. I never want to lose her.”
Now, I like that, I just wish it was what someone thought about me, unless someone tall, dark and dreamy with talents DOES actually think about me like that. Suffice it to say I’m going to claim it as my own for the purposes of me feeling better about myself. :D
Well I got kinda curious and tried it with mine and came up with 4,700 results. I never realised I was so prevalent on the internet. ;) There were many entries on social networking websites the world over (not all me!), a few images that appear on my Myspace account, I even found my Twitter account – seems I rank kinda highly on Google searches (page 1 is good right???) so thanks to all my fans. I couldn’t have done it without you. :p
But the best result I found was a link to this entry on the Urban Dictionary website (http://www.urbandictionary.com/) which read “The most admirable, alluring, angelic, appealing, amazing, beautiful person there is. This girl is a seriously one person you want to meat if you haven't already, and if you have you know what I mean. She light's up my day whenever I talk to her. She makes you smile, laugh, trust and a lot more. Nothing could ever replace what we have and nothing could ever replace this girl. I could seriously hold this girl for hours and really be okay. She makes me think about what importance there is in life. I would rather spend five minutes with her and never see my friends again, than never see her and see my friends forever. She means that much. She is worth everything. I never want to lose her.”
Now, I like that, I just wish it was what someone thought about me, unless someone tall, dark and dreamy with talents DOES actually think about me like that. Suffice it to say I’m going to claim it as my own for the purposes of me feeling better about myself. :D
Sunday 4 October 2009
Affirmation
There are times in your life when you need a little affirmation that you’re not quite as alone in this world as you thought. It’s silly, I know, but sometimes you get to that point, generally when you haven’t really spoken to anyone to any great extent in a while, when you wonder whether you’re important in anyone’s world. You briefly touch base and sometimes there’s just one line in a conversation that makes you realise that you’re not as far apart from people as you thought.
I was talking to one of my online friends earlier today and we were talking about a variety of things, and one thing that came up was one of our regular haunts that, in recent weeks, I have drifted away from. Firstly because the conversation generally revolves around Jon Bon Jovi, and as much as I am thankful to the man for envisioning and bringing to fruition, that wonderment that is known as “Bon Jovi”, he doesn’t really do it for me and I don’t particularly need to hear about how tight his pants are, or how smooth his chest is, and secondly, I tend to feel isolated when I’m there, even moreso since my li’l sis there has been AWOL. I told my friend that sometimes it feels like the commonality began and ended with Jovi, and even then not so much because of the ratio of Jon girls to the rest of us, and the inherent focus that brings; and how the topic eventually turns to husbands and kids and I end up sat there thinking “Shit, I am so out of my depth right now”.
She said one thing to me, and it’s something I never really thought about before. It kinda got burned in there …. “I feel a 'mom' connection with you since you are so close in age to my own daughter. That .... and we are shoe whores!” She then went on to factor in single-dom, work, music and the internet. And that kind of nailed it.
Out of all the things that go on in that community, I kind of overlooked those things. I was so focussed on the ‘normal’ day to day conversation that goes on in that community that I missed it. Probably more than a little to do with neither of us having spent that much time there recently; her due to the demands of her job, and me because life has been a real kick in the teeth lately and not left me with the energy to really participate in anything in that much depth. The fact that, in the grand scheme of things, in this small corner of the internet, me and this friend do have so much in common …. and we wouldn’t fight each other for the same guy.
So apart from the fact that me and 3 of my friends are actually the same person – having very similar problems and things going on with us, there’s this other connection. Another person who I didn’t realise I had so much in common with.
And internet friendships score another point in the ‘plus’ column ….
I was talking to one of my online friends earlier today and we were talking about a variety of things, and one thing that came up was one of our regular haunts that, in recent weeks, I have drifted away from. Firstly because the conversation generally revolves around Jon Bon Jovi, and as much as I am thankful to the man for envisioning and bringing to fruition, that wonderment that is known as “Bon Jovi”, he doesn’t really do it for me and I don’t particularly need to hear about how tight his pants are, or how smooth his chest is, and secondly, I tend to feel isolated when I’m there, even moreso since my li’l sis there has been AWOL. I told my friend that sometimes it feels like the commonality began and ended with Jovi, and even then not so much because of the ratio of Jon girls to the rest of us, and the inherent focus that brings; and how the topic eventually turns to husbands and kids and I end up sat there thinking “Shit, I am so out of my depth right now”.
She said one thing to me, and it’s something I never really thought about before. It kinda got burned in there …. “I feel a 'mom' connection with you since you are so close in age to my own daughter. That .... and we are shoe whores!” She then went on to factor in single-dom, work, music and the internet. And that kind of nailed it.
Out of all the things that go on in that community, I kind of overlooked those things. I was so focussed on the ‘normal’ day to day conversation that goes on in that community that I missed it. Probably more than a little to do with neither of us having spent that much time there recently; her due to the demands of her job, and me because life has been a real kick in the teeth lately and not left me with the energy to really participate in anything in that much depth. The fact that, in the grand scheme of things, in this small corner of the internet, me and this friend do have so much in common …. and we wouldn’t fight each other for the same guy.
So apart from the fact that me and 3 of my friends are actually the same person – having very similar problems and things going on with us, there’s this other connection. Another person who I didn’t realise I had so much in common with.
And internet friendships score another point in the ‘plus’ column ….
Saturday 3 October 2009
Second Base
A little while ago I explained how I’d bought the EA Sports Active game for the Wii. Unfortunately, despite my best efforts, after nearly killing myself that first day I kinda shied away from it simply because it took a week for me to recover because I’m in that bad shape. Well I decided to attempt it again. Not the EA Sports thing, but the fitness thing.
My new attempt at sorting out my health came as a result of something that happened that scared me a little. It’s most disconcerting to be doing nothing more than sitting on a couch watching TV and to suddenly, for no apparent reason, getting palpitations and dizziness. Of course, it’s obvious that this is more likely my blood pressure taking a sudden nose dive rather than anything else but it did freak me out some.
I think at that moment it was proved that my blood pressure has been way too high. Whether that’s because of work (knowing what my working environment is like) or whatever, I’m not sure but it was certainly something I needed to address and was not going to be helped at all by my physical fitness.
So that made that decision for me. I ordered Wii Fit and the board and I’ve actually been better at keeping that up than I was at the EA Sports …. and it actually seems to be working …. at least as far as my daily stress level is concerned anyway. It certainly seems to have dropped since I started doing it. Granted I’ve only been at it a few days and the actual physical changes won’t be noticeable for a while but I’m definitely sleeping better and finding it easier to get up in the morning because I’m working my stress out. I think that’s part of where the EA Sports fell down. Firstly it was more high impact and secondly, I was stressing that I couldn’t, and wouldn’t be, able to keep up with it.
Time will tell whether it will be short-lived though, or whether I continue to work at it. I have to admit, even though it’s quite an easy workout, it’s a fun 30 minutes. It doesn’t really feel like a work out. I’m actually glad I bought it …. and afterwards I treat myself to some “You Give Love A Bad Name” on GH5 – I’m a fricking Rock God …. albeit on the easy level …. ;)
My new attempt at sorting out my health came as a result of something that happened that scared me a little. It’s most disconcerting to be doing nothing more than sitting on a couch watching TV and to suddenly, for no apparent reason, getting palpitations and dizziness. Of course, it’s obvious that this is more likely my blood pressure taking a sudden nose dive rather than anything else but it did freak me out some.
I think at that moment it was proved that my blood pressure has been way too high. Whether that’s because of work (knowing what my working environment is like) or whatever, I’m not sure but it was certainly something I needed to address and was not going to be helped at all by my physical fitness.
So that made that decision for me. I ordered Wii Fit and the board and I’ve actually been better at keeping that up than I was at the EA Sports …. and it actually seems to be working …. at least as far as my daily stress level is concerned anyway. It certainly seems to have dropped since I started doing it. Granted I’ve only been at it a few days and the actual physical changes won’t be noticeable for a while but I’m definitely sleeping better and finding it easier to get up in the morning because I’m working my stress out. I think that’s part of where the EA Sports fell down. Firstly it was more high impact and secondly, I was stressing that I couldn’t, and wouldn’t be, able to keep up with it.
Time will tell whether it will be short-lived though, or whether I continue to work at it. I have to admit, even though it’s quite an easy workout, it’s a fun 30 minutes. It doesn’t really feel like a work out. I’m actually glad I bought it …. and afterwards I treat myself to some “You Give Love A Bad Name” on GH5 – I’m a fricking Rock God …. albeit on the easy level …. ;)
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